I want to first off say thank you for all the kind words this morning on my twitter! They helped brighten my day completely and thank you so so so so much to Nikki for staying awake with me from 2 am until 4 am chatting about life! I absolutely loved it!
If you follow me on twitter you may have seen my post, "Wow hose going to be the first person to call me Kim Kardashian #marriagenotlasting90days"
I didn't want to speak to anyone in my family about the marital problems that have come about since I have only been married 2 months!
my dad always said if you want to ruin a perfect relationship, get married.
While I do not believe that whatsoever. My mind has been changing in a drastic form lately. 7 year itch happening a little too early.
i have moved back to Seattle for an extended period of time to get my head on straight as I can not seem to focus on my marriage and why in the hell I got married.
Please make me feel like I am not the only one out there that is struggling with these types of things, but every little thing my husband does. ANNOYS ME!
I may sound like a nit picking little biznatch right now...but no joke
"Brandon you are brushing your teeth wrong"
"Brandon quit breathing so heavy"
or at all
"Brandon why can't you put the dishes in the dishwasher"
"Brandon why don't you want me"
Maybe because you're being an annoying controlling little pissant?
That's what I thought.
I have been so nit picky but I cannot get it under control to where now it is affecting the bedroom life.
or bedroom death in my case.
There is no magic happening. Ever. At all. I want to die.
I have this overwhelming feeling that my husband doesn't want me in the way I want to be wanted
Does that make sense?
I want passion, I want a man who comes home from being a lumberjack swings me over his shoulder, stomps his way into the bedroom, then....
ok I will not give you the details, but those details are not happening.
As I am re-reading this I want to delete everything but I won't and will ask opinions. I am constantly on Brandon's ass about everything, but there is no stopping it. I wake up in the morning saying I am going to be nice and not let little things bother me. They do.
The more frustrated and angry I get, the more my yatch does not get.
yatch=...c'mon do I have to say it?
I have had a complete dry spell for...more than 10 days lets say. Possibly 15
We can't stop arguing and I had even told Brandon I wanted an annulment.
Yes. This is actually how serious this is and I had to get out of my own head before I made a rash decision.
I did print and save the papers, but no ink to them!
What is going on?! Is this what happens to newlyweds? You get comfortable with the person and everything else goes to sh!t cause you are now tied to them for life? I don't get it. I don't know why this relationship seems to be ripping at the seams but yet I am the puppeteer of it all.
Think I could be bi-polar?
Marriage is tough and I mainly think anyone else reading this that can relate, now you know you are not alone!
I just want you to want me.