My life has been turned upside down from the last post.
I thank all of you that emailed me your private emails as well as the comments. I was willing to give it my all and apparently he wasn't but your kind words helped me sleep at night. I wish all of you other newlyweds that got married on August 4 we can still share some kind of happiness on that day I will be proud for you and you be proud that I got my dream wedding, everything I could ever want, i just lost it all too quickly.
I am getting a divorce.
It feels so harsh to say those words, but I asked my husband to do counseling and we could get help for our arguing, which wasn't that bad. Every normal couple argues and if you don't good for you, but I think you are lying.
My husband texted me all of this, which I think is the lowest of low's. I needed a man and thought I had a man who was going to say his wedding vows and mean them, that hasn't happened and been a huge whirlwind of small things they he didn't want to even try. So good reddens! I am so much better off without someone who isn't going to work hard for the one they love.
I moved back to Seattle, which has already been the most exciting thing in my life. I love living back at home and my dad has been absolutely amazing on helping me get back on my feet.
I have been calling myself names lately, like failure, loser, worthless, etc my dad has helped bring up my mood and let me know that I am not any of those things and I put my foot forward I extended my olive branch to work out my marital issues, he is the one that backed away, he coward and I get to keep my pride and stand tall.
The job hunt continues and I am so excited to start my life over as being single and having a new career. Prayers would help to extend to the business I have applied for will somehow come across my name and know that I will be the right fit.
What I have enjoyed most about this is I feel whole. I ultimately feel like I am complete and almost sad since I have to feel that way and be alone. But I like it. I like making my own rules. I wake up every morning and I get to do what Taylor wants to do. I live by Taylor's rules.
It is amazing how certain people find out what is going on in your life and they slowly start to come out of the woodwork! like I had said I love being wanted. My swag has been rejuvenated and I am ready to let my hair down, change up my attitude, see where my life takes me now.
I have this scripture that I have been carrying around
Don't worry I won't be getting all religious on you guys! I don't push that stuff, it's my business..so let's just take this as "words of wisdom" from a very big book :)
"Look on everyone who is proud and humble him, And tread down the wicked where they stand"
Have a fantastic week!